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I was healed by Lynn yesterday. Whole body and head were swayed around. It was a good feeling and relaxing. I could feel the heat and energy flowing to me. I felt sad and helpless when I heard Lynn’s aunt was throwing up and crying. I could feel the agony in this situation because I, myself experience it. I’d like to so much to get up and hug her at that moment. I feel so sad because they are many more other sentient beings out there who cried for help of their suffering. But until this moment, there is nothing that I could do to help them cease their suffering. The sorrowful feeling is still here, even at this minute I am writing this blog.
DG
It was indeed an awesome night! The moment I yun-ling, the DG moment was so big and getting faster. MR kept reminding us to be aware of our breathing. I thought could it be that it have been sometime since the last I did DG thus I got such active action. I was like moving round and round, and jumping. A few minutes later, I feel dis-comfort in my stomach area. I threw up some air, and continue my DG, threw up again and afterthat continue do my DG.
MR once said that “DG action is the same of how we behave in our daily action and character”. I’d like so much to find out how did I fare in my daily life and how have I been scored in my human life. For my case I should not care so much or control my mind so much as I could break down anytime soon according to MR. So, I’d use the method of Awareness. Even sometime I would have to get angry or other thought, I’d let it come up. In this method I realize that as long as I have a strong foundation, even thought there is unwholesome thought, it would automatically subside itself. Even without I, myself suppress the unwholesome thought.
MR, do you have any comment?
With this thought I related it to my DG action, I’d like so much to feel serene, peace, just be myself and have faith in myself. I close my eyes and yun-ling again. The DG was different this time. I was so happy and serene although the discomfort in my tummy. I told myself that it would be alright and I told myself again that I am willing to accept this part of the process be it sweet or bitter. True enough, I felt better.
MR asked us (Cheryl, Angeline, Wer and Me) to combine the colours of our energy together. MR told us there was heavenly being watching us from the sky. There was a lot of Dragon Spine with the head and tail. According to Ah Zar research (hehe…) they are 1,000 dragons were watching over us. Ah Zar at that night was like heroin she was like moving around; help some of us answer some question by using her hand calculation and book, just like she has a laptop on her hand to do research hahaha……Afterward, she was distributing Fa-Yao , said it was from the Dragon King. To me, it was more like fruit because I could feel something round and as big as apple size when I put inside my mouth. She gave me 2 Fa Yaos.
After completion everything, I look into the sky again, I capture that image of the sky in my mind and heart. At that moment, I was so happy and fortunate to have this auspicious experience. Also, to realize that I am not alone, whatever bitterness and sweetness in my/our cultivation process are watching over by heaven. They are always ready to help US in any case we are really really in need of help. Also to further add-on, there are really so called Heaven and heavenly being. They are not just a mystic but they are real.
In my sleep when I closed my eyes, I could still see the Pink Dragon that I visualize and the image of the sky.
Today , I feel so lethargic ,muscle aching and sneezing.
In summary, I am happy, happy and happy. Also, not forgetting to always stay humble:)
At first I was so excited when I was given the homework:). I started my homework yesterday. However it is not as easy as I thought of, during the chanting I realized it required a lot of determination, compassionate, loving kindness, patient, understand the truth meaning of OMPHM, and must chant this great mantra not only because of oneself but to all sentient being without exception. For the first chanting 3 mala I was kneeling down, the pain of my legs couldn’t get me concentrate; hence I decided to sit down for the rest chanting. Question for MR: is it alright to sit down when doing chanting?
For GYFM, I threw out again, didn’t scream as much, the feeling was full of regret and seek forgiveness. After that my hand was moved towards the throwing area and my mouth was talking with some language that I don’t understand but I realized that the pronunciation is the same each time after I threw up I’d say something like that. I can’t concentrate as much when chanting “Na MO Amitoufo” as my body was so shacked. And now…I am quite scared to do GYFM:(… I know this is the path I have to go through. Well, with the intention power, I still manage to motivate myself to go through this path with open heart to accept whatever obstacle with the compensation of gaining experience. But, I don’t know how long more I will pull through it.
I had a nightmare last night, I dreamt all my teeth was decaying and dropping, …. :(
Another one was dreaming of LZT’s bro and sis. MR was forcing each of our third eye to open by using his hands. I saw Jeslynn’s skin break on the forehead and I really saw the eye ball. In the dream I was negotiating with MR that Can I be excluded?…abit scared though.
May all brothers and sisters have a smoother journey for cultivation for the benefit all sentient being!
Last Sunday healing was wonderful. For the first time in my life I had such a relaxing feeling. It was the feeling that cannot be describe in just a single word. It was like I was in someplace with full of white background. A place with full of peace and happiness, no worry, no sadness, and no typical characteristic of human race. At that moment I was really miss that place so much and longing to go back there so much. As I was mumbling to myself “I want to go home, I want to go home,…” my tear rolled down from my eyes. I know that I shouldn’t look for the feeling, I have to just let image come and go as it is. However, if there was really such place, I would be really glad. Free from any kind human characteristics. Many thanks to MR and Kelvin who also give free consultation after the healing session.
Daily SOP was as usual. Yesterday, when I was doing GYFM, I had a feeling of throwing up again. I could feel a lot of cold air came out from my mouth. It could be that I was rather emotional/ moody recently. I am not sure. I have been feeling my stomach rather cold and chill, stomach discomfort since 3 weeks ago, still not yet recover:(.
Wish everyone have a wonderful holiday and happy time together with your friends and love one:)
I was healed by Cheryl, the feeling was good. Tears rolled down to my cheek when she hugged me. I could feel her compassionate. Thanks sis:)
DG at playground was fun and tiring. Prior to go there, I was having tummy ache and headache, but after DG session I felt refreshed. Still couldn’t catch the lingo of so called combining power. I was not sure if our movement the same but at some moment I was following nearer to Edy and I kept remind myself that I also have to think of Cheryl in the group. 4 of us healed Jace. When putting at her back heartcakra, I felt ther some kind of goosebump and slight pain at my heart.
Question for MR: May I know why I have this feeling when healing Jace?
Daily SOP
As usual, there are throbbing my heart cakra, third eye cakra, throat cakra and solar plexus cakra. There is heat throughout the whole GYFM.
After that did sitting DG and singing Prajna Paramitta Mantra.
Afterwards chanted Vajrasattva mantra, while chanting I felt pressure on my crown cakra, the feeling was like there is static around there (like many ants crawling).
In the day, I have been practicing mindfulness of my speech, mind and action. This is something that I am really glad that I can be mindfulness of everything I do. I also hope that I can clear the defilement in me.
And Also hope that all bros and sis have a smoother journey for cultivation:).
6 Dec 2009
I was healed by Andrew. During the healing I felt heat through out, my mouth was trembling, and energy flew to my body also. However, I got pain in my stomach and my left kidney area in which I’d have slight pain on that particular area sometime. Hopefully, the bad energy at that area has been burnt away. Thanks a lot, Andrew for the healing but not forgotten Uncle Sim who added in more strength also.
Daily SOP at home
On Monday (7 Dec 2009) when chanting OMPMH with the singing version, I have a different feeling. My tears were flown down. Seem that with the singing version, I could capture each syllabus and the meaning better. I read one of the Dharma book stated that” We should have equanimity feeling for someone that we love, someone we dislike, someone who like us, and someone who dislike us”. Since we know that emptiness is form and form is emptiness, we should not bother too much about the feeling who we like more, who we dislike more, who like us more and who dislike us more. I will start applying this concept in my daily life with equanimity feeling for all situations.
Yesterday SOP During GYFM, I threw up again with some little blood. Probably it was due to I have exerted too much strength when vomiting. Strange enough, I didn’t throw my food at all.
Today when I woke up whole body felt very weak, slight pain on my neck spine and head and on medical leave at home.
22 Nov 2009
Special Thanks to Keagan for healing me. During the healing, I felt peaceful and much calmer compare to the previous healing. When MR and other bros and Sis chanted OMPMH, my heart cakra was painful ultimately with some throbbing. I found that my heart cakra was trobbing, I would feet breatheless.
Is that supposed to be the way?
There were a few images appeared in my mind but I just it come and go. After the healing, whole body was weak and relaxed as if I have gone to body massage hahaha……
In class session
When MR was chanting The Prajna Paramita Sutta, I felt so peaceful and happy. I like the rhythm, some we were allowed to more our hand freely at that time. My body was swaying and hand was creating some formation.
For AH Meditation, Somehow I am not sure if we should chanted it out or not. But, I have been holding on to not voice out. But, at some point, the voices just come out that naturally.So Bo Pien, I continue with the “Ah” sound. I am sorry if I have caused bro and sis confused or distracted with the sound ya:)
DG session in the evening, It has been a long time since the last time I did DG together with Bro and Sis. Actually, I was quite confusing with link one mind with other bro and sis. That night DG, I couldn’t concentrate well too probably due to a lot of itchiness on my legs. However, my action during was a bit calmer in moving my hands and legs. Hopefully, I can have more concentration for the next DG session and link my mind with other bro and sis.
Daily SOP
I have been having a busy schedule coping with works and studying, especially, with the up-coming Final exam on next whole week. That’s why I can only find time to update my blog now. Heehee. ….
However, with the intention power, promise myself at least must SOP for 45 mins. SOP was as usual, heat, third eye cakra, throat cakra and Heart cakra were throbbing once at time.
Yesterday Fa Hui
Many many thanks to all bro and sis who have contributed their precious energy and time to make it a successful event. When I enter the room, it was so stuffy. I managed to calm myself and close my eyes.
My third eye cakra was throbbing all the time, followed by throat cakra, and little throbbing in my heart cakra.
I listened attentively to Rinpoche chanting. When he said that he offered himself in order to help us to clear the bad energy, I was so touch of his great compassionate. I hope I can have that kind of mindset one day. He is leaving for Tibet on Sunday. Hope to see him soon.
Both my hands was trembling when it stopped I felt the static was moving around my hands.
Many thanks to MR who always have us in his mind, those who need a special blessing were allowed to be blessed 1st. Ya, I thought my blessing was a little different, MR was there to calm me, to ask me relax. After the blessing, my head was a little painful.
When I reached home, I also don’t know why I felt little moody and sad. I let the feeling out put them together in my dream land and fell asleep. I didn’t suppress like in the past when I had negative feeling.
This morning it was much better and feel refresh.
May all be Well, Happy and Peaceful:)
I’d like to express my gratitude to all Bro and Sis who has healed and Jia che me yesterday. The moment they put their hands on my crown, or any part of my body, I could feel their compassionate and kindness to wish me get well soon. They have done it with the consequences that they have interrupted the Law of karma. It is truly some kind of awesome feeling that I can’t describe it all in words.
After a talk with MR, in fact I couldn’t really slept well Last Night. I have been thinking about it. Whatever, Whoever that I have caused them miserly, sorrowful, and unhappiness, I m willing to accept their punishment, I am willing to repay them. What past is past, I only care about my present life. I only care about the soul that I have now. If I have a chance to express it out, if I can choose I would want to say” My mission is not just mainly to get back to the place where I should belong, but I want to create a mission for myself that I wholeheartedly want to complete sincerely and do not wish to get anything in return at all”.
Question for MR:
I have been feeling exceptionally cold to my whole body since yesterday. Is this part and parcel of the healing process? Thanks.
Just finished my SOP, these 2 days, I didn’t throw up as much as last week. Seem it has cooled down. This is good news to me. In my life I have never throw up as much as the previous week. Imagine that when I went to see doctor because I have thrown up so much that caused bleeding in my throat, the doctor was asking if I got diarrhea ( My answer was not), the next question she would ask ” R U pregnant?”. However, before she asked that question, I have answered her 1st that “I m not Pregnant”. I could see she had a big question mark on her forehead, that this girl is really abnormal. Haha…….
During chanting of OMPMH, my head was giddy and felt un-comfortable in my stomach area. GYFM, sudden pained on my back heart Cakra, heat surround my head but my throat cakra was a bit minty feeling. After GYFM, I did self healing.
Question for MR: If there are 3 people dreamt of the same dream at the same time, is there any significant meaning? Thank you in advance for your answer:)
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