22 Nov 2009 ~ 26 Nov 2009

22 Nov 2009

Special Thanks to Keagan for healing me. During the healing, I felt peaceful and much calmer compare to the previous healing. When MR and other bros and Sis chanted OMPMH, my heart cakra was painful ultimately with some throbbing. I found that my heart cakra was trobbing, I would feet breatheless.

Is that supposed to be the way?

There were a few images appeared in my mind but I just it come and go. After the healing, whole body was weak and relaxed as if I have gone to body massage hahaha……

In class session

When MR was chanting The Prajna Paramita Sutta, I felt so peaceful and happy. I like the rhythm, some we were allowed to more our hand freely at that time. My body was swaying and hand was creating some formation.

 For AH Meditation, Somehow I am not sure if we should chanted it out or not. But, I have been holding on to not voice out. But, at some point, the voices just come out that naturally.So Bo Pien, I continue with the “Ah” sound. I am sorry if I have caused bro and sis confused or distracted with the sound ya:)

DG session in the evening, It has been a long time since the last time I did DG together with Bro and Sis. Actually, I was quite confusing with link one mind with other bro and sis. That night DG, I couldn’t concentrate well too probably due to a lot of itchiness on my legs. However, my action during was a bit calmer in moving my hands and legs. Hopefully, I can have more concentration for the next DG session and link my mind with other bro and sis.

 Daily SOP

I have been having a busy schedule coping with works and studying, especially, with the up-coming Final exam on next whole week. That’s why I can only find time to update my blog now. Heehee. ….

However, with the intention power, promise myself at least must SOP for 45 mins. SOP was as usual, heat, third eye cakra, throat cakra and Heart cakra were throbbing once at time.

Yesterday Fa Hui

 Many many thanks to all bro and sis who have contributed their precious energy and time to make it a successful event. When I enter the room, it was so stuffy. I managed to calm myself and close my eyes.

My third eye cakra was throbbing all the time, followed by throat cakra, and little throbbing in my heart cakra.

I  listened attentively to Rinpoche chanting. When he said that he offered himself in order to help us to clear the bad energy, I was so touch of his great compassionate. I hope I can have that kind of mindset one day. He is leaving for Tibet on Sunday. Hope to see him soon.

Both my hands was trembling when it stopped I felt the static was moving around my hands.

Many thanks to MR who always have us in his mind, those who need a special blessing were allowed to be blessed 1st. Ya, I thought my blessing was a little different, MR was there to calm me, to ask me relax. After the blessing, my head was a little painful.

When I reached home, I also don’t know why I felt little moody and sad. I let the feeling out put them together in my dream land and fell asleep. I didn’t suppress like in the past when I had negative feeling.

This morning it was much better and feel refresh.

May all be Well, Happy and Peaceful:)

Healing

I’d like to express my gratitude to all Bro and Sis who has healed and Jia che me yesterday. The moment they put their hands on my crown, or any part of my body, I could feel their compassionate and kindness to wish me get well soon. They have done it with the consequences that they have interrupted the Law of karma. It is truly some kind of awesome feeling that I can’t describe it all in words.

After a talk with MR, in fact I couldn’t really slept well Last Night. I have been thinking about it. Whatever, Whoever that I have caused them miserly, sorrowful, and unhappiness, I m willing to accept their punishment, I am willing to repay them. What past is past, I only care about my present life. I only care about the soul that I have now. If I have a chance to express it out, if I can choose I would want to say” My mission is not just mainly to get back to the place where I should belong, but I want to create a mission for myself that I wholeheartedly want to complete sincerely and do not wish to get anything in return at all”.

Question for MR:

I have been feeling exceptionally cold to my whole body since yesterday. Is this part and parcel of the healing process? Thanks.

Self Healing

Just finished my SOP, these 2 days, I didn’t throw up as much as last week. Seem it has cooled down. This is good news to me. In my life I have never throw up as much as the previous week. Imagine that when I went to see doctor because I have thrown up so much that caused bleeding in my throat, the doctor was asking if I got diarrhea ( My answer was not), the next question she would ask ” R U pregnant?”. However, before she asked that question, I have answered her 1st that  “I m not Pregnant”. I could see she had a big question mark on her forehead, that this girl is really abnormal. Haha…….

During chanting of OMPMH, my head was giddy and felt un-comfortable in my stomach area. GYFM, sudden pained on my back heart Cakra, heat surround my head but my throat cakra was a bit minty feeling. After GYFM, I did self healing.

Question for MR: If there are 3 people dreamt of the same dream at the same time, is there any significant meaning? Thank you in advance for your answer:)

Alm Offering to Sangha, Shuilu Fahui

Hi Bro and Sis

Below is the link if keen to find out more:

http://www.kmspks.org/ch/events/alms2010.htm

http://www.kmspks.org/events/pdf/Shuilu.pdf

8 Nov 09~ 10 Nov 09

Sunday Healing session

Special thanks to Vin, Lynn and MR for last Sunday healing session. I threw out and cry it out. However only threw out air, nothing come out from my mouth.

During GYFM, hands were numb with static feeling, my lip was open and like wanted to speak but I controlled not to let it did so.

9 Nov 2009

Last night evening, when I was in class suddenly I felt a sudden pain in my chest area and heart beat was pumping faster and faster. I also smelt joss stick fragrance around me at that time but last only for awhile.

This morning SOP

During GYFM, my chest area was painful again. Somehow, I could feel some throbbing for a while. But it was so so painful that I felt like  to cry.  Mouth was opened; I could felt some cold air came out from my mouth. It must be I have a lot of cold energy in my body. Again, I had a reaction to throw out something but it was just air.

Question for MR:

1. When I throw up just air, does it mean I have really thrown out the bad energy?
2. Recently, during GYFM I’d have reaction of throwing out. I am so afraid it will become a habit. Should I let be?

Thanks MR in advance for your answer

31 Oct 2009 ~ 3 Nov 2009

Last Sunday Session

Firstly of all, I’d like to thank Kelvin for last Sunday healing and consultation session. I really appreciate it so much. And of course other bro and sis who chanted OMPMH in which at that moment I felt some sadness as well as peaceful, I’d also want to express my gratitude to them.

SOP

For the past few days, during chanting OMPMH I’d feel some trembling feeling on mouth and both hands. At one moment, my mind would turn blank with white background but I was still on conscious mind.

This morning while I was chanting OMPMH both my hands were trembling but at one point they were turning cold. However, other part of my body still had warm feeling.

For GYFM, there were warm feelings on my head, and sometime at my back. Mind was blank. Sometime, I’d experienced both my ears heard some wavelength sound that made me couldn’t hear anything for at least a few second then I turn back to normal again. Also, After GYFM I’d feel slight headache.

Dream

I had a dream was bitten on the left of my back by Monster (Looked like Monkey head but got tiger body), I could felt the pain in my dream however, the teeth were not sharp. I didn’t bleed. I wonder if there is any hidden meaning of the dream. But Nvm it is just a dream ….

In General

Last 2 days ago, I couldn’t really sleep well after Sunday class. Both legs were in pain, probably after DG session. Last night, I felt better after the salt water cleaning.

Last night, when I was about to sleep there was throbbing on my forehead and throat area. I had a sound sleep until morning:)

22 October 2009 ~ 27 October 2009

SOP was alright for the past few days. I’d like to thanks Kelvin for last Sunday healing. It was great! I really felt rejuvenate after that session. Hope you are fine too after healing me.

I will have another session of healing again this Sunday:). I know that I should feel glad and should not have taken for granted to be healed. The major point is still depending on me to have the intention power to let the negative energy out from my body.

Frankly speaking, I was a bit lost to find the solution of my problem which somehow I also don; t know what is the problem. But, I somehow feel there is puzzle game in me that i need to crack the password. May be I should not cling too much on this thought and let myself fall to learn for the lesson. But I believe, I can find the solution to my problems one day.

From 19 October 2009 to 21 October 2009

Manage to memorize almost all the SOP and mantra.

During GYFM, both hands were trembling and moving in circular direction. See some images but let it come and go.

Today,

While chanting OMPMH, hands were trembling too. During GYFM, some force pull my hands to the left , right, back and top of my head. But din let go of my mundra hands and stand up.

To prevent my mind from thinking unwholesome thought, I have been memorizing and practicing The Eight Rightfold Path especially on Right Intention, Right Thought and Right Effort. It does help though.

Happiness >< Sadness

There is always happiness and sadness.

Yesterday SOP

After the SOP yesterday, I felt quite refreshing and happy in the morning.

During GYFM, hands moved in circular anti clock-wise direction then moved forward and backward before it stopped.

During my encounter in the evening, certain things made me sad. Also, make me realized one valuable lesson is that” If I am going to help others, must give out all I have with sincerity with no expectation to have anything in return, not even expect  “Thank You” words from them, and Not even expect them to help me if I am in need of help”.

 

Today SOP

I felt the opposite of yesterday feeling.

During GYFM, hands movement was the same as yesterday.  I realized a stronger kind intention of me to develop wholesome thought, a stronger so called “demon thought” in my mind to distract me to develop the good thought.

Well…i was wondering if I should blog this feeling down. I had been feeling heartache since this morning. I don’t know what is bothering me either. The pain was last longer than usual.  The heat was around my chest area.

In the past I used to have this kind of feeling too.  In fact this feeling has been haunted me since I was young. It was like a sudden sadness that I couldn’t describe myself also.

Am I just a so called moody girl? Too sensitive again?  LOL…..I hope and wish I can have the answer one day.

SOP in the morning

Due tight schedule between study and work plus with the recent project and exam, decided to wake up earlier to change my SOP in the morning.

I realized that if I did my SOP at night I am able to visualized better and have more feeling.

But when I do SOP in the morning, I can’t really visualized that much. However, I can concentrate better on my GYFM better because I think I can close my six senses better (may another words not much feeling). But again I can’t do a long GYFM due to time constraint got to rush to work.

 

Shifu, is that supposed to be that way?

Can I continue to my GYFM at night after I have done my partial GYFM in the morning?